On Journaling

So, I saw Lucy yesterday and confessed that I have not been journaling like she told me to do over a year ago. I felt very guilty so I am making an attempt. I just find it very hard even though I know it is good for me. I know all that journaling will do I just choose not to. Why? Maybe because I just do not want to know what it will force me to discover. Maybe I am afraid to find out. Who knows but I am going to start making an effort.